Adventures of the Traveling Grief Case

Don’t ya think?

Isn’t it ironic that the last blog post I had here, was about writing things down to make them happen? That was over two years ago. Although I haven’t stopped writing completely, I had stopped blogging.

So, what have I been up doing these past two years? That is a good question. I find myself pondering exactly that. However, I’m going to have to go backwards in this journey to remember.

You’ve heard the quote about two steps forward, one step back. I’ve even heard that we can just refer to it as a cha cha. Which brings me to the first thing I was doing. Living abroad. Learning Spanish.

Living my best life!

So everyone thought.

It can appear that way through social media, because we tend to share the positive aspects when we are putting ourselves on display. Anyways, I wasn’t living my worst life, but I may share more in the future.

What I can tell you is that through the good and the not so good, I was learning. I was growing. I was experiencing all kinds of new cultures, ways of thinking, and perspectives. To say the least, I was living!

I was also working on publishing a book on dealing with grief and the loss of my father. I have more than 100 pages, in fact! However, the editing process had me stalled. The imposter’s syndrome and fear of failure threw me into freeze mode.

I have countless friends who have asked when it would be done. Can they read it? Can I send them a copy? I wanted to finish it so bad. The harder I tried, the less I accomplished.

So, after researching all the money and work that goes into writing, editing and publishing I changed my mind. However, I came up with an alternative plan.

I felt like I just kept seeing more friends losing loved ones. Be it a parent, spouse, child or friend. I wanted so badly to help them. I kept thinking, I should really finish my book. Maybe it will help someone else on their journey. That’s when it hit me. Why not just blog?

As much as I love that people are eager to purchase a copy of my book, this isn’t about money. Well, it’s sort of about the money due to how much authors spend to publish. This is about sharing my story so that someone can find connection. Find hope, in those moments of despair, that it will get better. Find encouragement when days are tough. Find ways to process and navigate through their grief.

I don’t have an exact date yet, but I will be starting to share my would be book through blogging. The idea of sharing as a blog makes the editing process seem less overwhelming. It helps me throw out my need for perfection. It reminds me I can always start sloppy.

Aside from that, I am now back home for the moment. I am working in insurance again, for now. I’m also doing some bookkeeping. But I’m also writing again. I’m writing a lot! Although, at times, it feels like a step back, I know it’s just a cha cha.