Warrior Woman

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So last week I was inspired to write a post Loving Me which was a love letter to myself.  In fact, it encouraged several other bloggers to do the same and I hope it continues to spread.  A couple days later I found some old emails to myself and shared them in  A Little More Love (cause you really can’t have too much)
So, as I continued to go through some old journals, I stumbled across this letter I wrote.  If you have been reading,  you know that I talked about how I thought I wasn’t worthy of love.  It wasn’t for me.  There is a song by Anthony Hamilton called Dear Life and one of the lines says,

” Ooooh sometimes I go on through life
Thinking that love is something that’s
Not meant for me.”

I remember listening to the song after a break up one night and crying, not even because of that person, but because of the fact that the lyrics described exactly how I felt.  Today I found this letter and was encouraged to share it with my readers. 

For so long I thought I wasn’t worthy of love. I kept thinking, oh, make them run.  I will only hurt you. You will fall in love and I will break your heart because that’s what I do. I will bend over backwards. I will be and do and say everything you want and you will love me. A black widow,  I will then tire of you, push you away, gasping for air and needing room to breathe. You will grasp on tighter and I will turn.  I will freeze over like the ice queen and you will cry and beg for the person you first met. You will clutch on, cling and it will feed my ego for a short time, but then I will grow bored of you. Maybe that’s not the case. Maybe I will be thrilled with the idea of love. The idea of saving or fixing you. A love of nurturing you. But you cannot fill my needs and once I realize this I will let go. Maybe I was settling. Maybe I was looking for the wrong things. I no longer see this. I no longer feel the need to impress. I am me. I am loving. I am nurturing. I’m an amazing woman. I no longer feel the need to prove myself. No longer need your acceptance. I need to be more than what you need me to be. I need to be free. I need adventure. Room to grow, to feel, to love, to explore, to breathe and to fly.  In time and in space. To change. To nurture me. But thank you all for the journey. For the lessons along the way. To teach me who I really am. A warrior woman with strength. I finally realized I am too strong and you never could have battled me.

I continue to write my letters, to encourage myself of the need to let go of perfection. Because I am slowly realizing my biggest flaw is nothing more than trying to be perfect.

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3 Day quote challenge with a twist!

So I was nominated by Tikeetha for the 3 day quote.  I follow her blog and I really enjoy it, check her out!  She did love quotes and I think I am going to switch it up and incorporate Black History Month and Valentine’s Day for this.  I’m also going to take quotes from song lyrics because, hey, love songs have great quotes too!  So each day I will post a song, highlight the line I love and post the video as well.  They will all be love songs by Black artists for Black History month.  Then I will nominate 3 bloggers each day to do the same.  (Only you can just post quotes, nothing fancy.  Although I think they should either pertain to love for Valentine’s day or they should pertain to Black History Month…but that’s my two cents)

So the first Quote is from one of my favorite Black Male artists, Anthony Hamilton.  If you don’t know him, you should definintly check him out.  I love his voice, his music, and his lyrics.  One of my favorite songs by him is called “The Truth”.   See the video here: 
The Truth
My favorite line from this song is

” Compromise, try and see eye to eye, 

Cause love’s not blind, it knows when you care”

This is so true.  I hope you enjoy this song.  Also, if you are interested you can find the lyrics below.

I nominate the following 3 bloggers for the 3 Day Quote Challenge. All you have to do is post a quote for 3 days and each day you nominate 3 other bloggers to post a quote.

Nicia
TheChyLife
Aishwariya Ramachandran

So look for another love song, quote and Black Artist tomorrow.  Oh and check out the lyrics below. 😆

“The Truth”

You must feel safe when you fall in love
Equal in the time you and I share together
Compromise, try and see eye to eye
Cause love’s not blind, it knows when you care
Always kiss your lady, tell her that you love her,
Pray and make a baby, that was made to love
Show her she’s important, bring flowers for her,
And build on the truth (build on the truth)

If you take a little walk with me (walk with me)
Girl I’ll lead you to the truth (girl, I’ll lead you, lead you)
And if you never give up on me (give up on me)
Girl, I’ll share it all with you (Girl, I’ll share it all)
Show directions when I’ve lost my way (lost my way)
I’ll be around to stay (I’ll be around) to show you the truth, truth

If you trust me, I’ll make sure to build you up, through all your dreams
You and I will go together
Forget your past, the love you had that never last
God knew your heart and I was made for you
Girl, I won’t mistreat you, never
Always make love to you
Go to church together, even get baptized too
We can read the bible (read the bible)
Play mom father
This marriage is true (oh)

If you take a little walk with me (walk with me)
Girl I’ll lead you to the truth (girl, I’ll lead you, lead you)
And if you never give up on me (give up on me)
Girl, I’ll share it all with you (Girl, I’ll share it all)
Show directions when I’ve lost my way (lost my way)
I’ll be around to stay (I’ll be around) to show you the truth, truth (x2)
Songwriters: VINCENT, STAN/HARRIS, JAMES SAMUEL III/LEWIS, TERRY
The Truth lyrics © EMI Music Publishing, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Universal Music Publishing Group, Ultra Tunes

lyrics found here