The healer cannot heal others without first healing themselves
But how do you heal yourself
without allowing yourself
To break free of all that you thought you were
all that others expect you to be
to become all that you truly are
It’s not about being comfortable in your own skin
But finding comfort in the uncomfortable
Because all that is uncomfortable is what pushes you further
Because breaking the mold and pushing through to the next level is how you grow
and growth is how you heal
So here I am. At the gym. Really don’t want to be, but since I’m on week 3 of the new year, I know I need to. I started to fall off a bit. Most likely it was because I am that “all or nothing” gal. I get all Gung ho and burn myself right out. Sometimes I forget to balance things out. That is what I really need to work on. So many things I want to start doing so I try to do them all. Here is a summary of my workouts so far.
Week 1 – I exercised 7 days (gym or walked)
Week 2 – I was at the gym 4 days
Week 3 – I was at the gym 2 days out of 4
All weekend I felt exhausted and lazy. I also feel like I’m coming down with a cold. I’m pretty sure that it’s because I haven’t been drinking enough water. I’ve been eating healthy and I’m down 5 lbs so far. I even had my first skinny day. You know those days when you just feel skinny, even if you don’t look any more skinny than you were the day before? Yet when you over do it or try to do everything at once it can sometimes backfire.
Story of my life. Almost 38 and I’ve still yet to learn balance. Some lady actually caught me journaling in the sauna this weekend *embarrassing*. She said it was great that I could do that. I told her I think it’s because sometimes I don’t know how to slow down. I’m always trying to multitask. I literally have to tell myself it’s OK to do nothing. I find myself trying to fit everything in. I mean even now I’m on the elliptical typing this. Obviously I’m not moving too fast but I’m moving. As an Aries, I often forget that sometimes slow and steady wins the race. I have to remind myself to breathe, to close my eyes, slow down my mind and feel life. Stop wishing it away. Stop plowing through. It’s actually like the exercise. Did you know that you actually burn fat at a slower level than cardio? While cardio is good for your heart, the rate your body burns fat is actually slower. Even your body needs to slow down to get ahead sometimes. Some days your body needs rest. Time to heal. Time to take a deep breath and get it together so you can move ahead.
I can hear the spin class going on next door. Last week I completed a spin class for the first time in years. Spinning is no joke. I have a love hate relationship with it but I think I did it as more of a challenge to myself. To prove to myself I could do it. I did. It was definitely not fun at first but then you challenge yourself to push through. It felt good to know I could do it. This week, however, I’m lucky I even got here. I really only came for the sauna. And right now I’m only on the bike so I can finish this blog.
Now that I look back at the fact that I have made it to the gym two out of four days, that pretty darn good. I’ll take 50%.
Over all it has been a good week, and hey, I made it! Maybe my body starting to feel sick is a reminder to slow down. I’m in this for the long haul. Stop rushing and enjoy the moment.
*photo credit – I do not own rights to photo it was found on the Internet